Monday, May 25, 2009
Look at that happy face, and you know why I am so happy, It is because I was selfish today! I didn't post anything yesterday because I was in a real funk and I blamed Charlie for me having such a jacked up day, but the truth of the matter is that it was all my fault. Yesterday, I was selfless and there in lies the problem, I didn't do the thing that I really wanted to do because I talked myself out of it, over the concern for others. I had convinced myself that the right thing to do was to not ask for what I wanted because it was too much. So I ended up back at home pissed off, and I went to bed early because I had stopped talking. In the morning it was all clear to me, selflessness sucks! I only get one life as far as I know, and you mean that I should spend it denying myself and putting others first. No!!!! From here on out I will do the things that I want to do and ask for the things that I need. When we were out in Big Sur today, whenever Charlie thought I might be having a "selfless moment," he would make me aware of what I was doing and, I would get it together. I think that being selfish is a great thing . For me, Ayn Rand said it best, "This world is perishing in an orgy of self sacrifice." No more sacrificing myself!